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Mea Culpa
03:24
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2. |
Lucidity
04:19
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I don’t know what you did to me
I lost track of gravity
It drove me to insanity
But, if you’ll give your love to me
And somehow unconditionally
Happily I’ll receive
And if you’ve looked past my amorality
And all my abnormalities
And grant me hospitality
I’ll let you give your pain to me
I think it’s really plain to see
That’s what this all is meant to be
So when your world is down and out
And you need someone to lean on or somewhere to hide out
When you want to stay in your bed and turn all the lights out
When you’re lost and need help finding the right route
I want you to remember what you did for me
To pull me from the rubble when my life crumbled chaotically
To think you’d flinch a single finger at the fucking thought of me
That’s humbling
I don’t know what you did to me
I lost track of gravity
It drove me to insanity
But, if you’ll give your love to me
And somehow unconditionally
Happily I’ll receive
And if you’ve looked past my amorality
And all my abnormalities
And grant me hospitality
I’ll let you give your pain to me
I think it’s really plain to see
That’s what this all is meant to be
I know I’m not much help
Because I’m too busy trying to sort out myself
Because I’m too busy trying to sort out my health
And I’m not so great at the hellos but I do fine with the farewells
But at least I’m not dead
And I can still remember every single thing you said
The song that you sing is always stuck in my head
And all I wanted to do was sing along
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3. |
All of the Above
05:54
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I came a long way to meet you here
Miles of ice and snow just to make it very clear
That I faced my darkest demons and my deepest darkest fears
And tons of shit promoters just to get in your ears
I hit the books for too many years
Spending my days stressing and my nights as a cashier
And now that I got you I won’t be cavalier
I’m not here to impress you and you’re not my fucking peers
I drift from spot to spot you know me well
I’m in all your vices and you’re living in my hell
I’m singing like a bell but I’ll go off like a bombshell
But sometimes for ill reason since I killed all my brain cells
I’ll greet you with some strange smells
Strange spells - give you a story that you can’t retell
I’ll live in your past like a rumor you can’t dispel
I’m pulled into the void and I’m pulling you as well.I’m pulled into the void and I’m pulling you as well
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4. |
Dahlia
05:26
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This is the season of change
So bring on the rains
Shed the old callous skin
Open up let the air in
Take a breath like it’s your last
And learn the lessons from your past
Never again
Will you submit to your pain
Going through the motions, cold
Tolerant of dead and old
Looking for the exit door
Trying to even the score
Soak your leaves and drink from me
Tell me that you will never leave
(Water)
It runs from you, it runs from me
It falls from the sky and settles in a puddle at our feet
Longingly, desperately
We span the distance with each other’s assistance
Finding our ways separately
Till I’m with you, and you’re with me
I’m floating through the cosmos
Collecting dust, feeling incomplete
You’re casting your spells
So that I may live well
Cast away impending doom
And find new life outside the womb
Use your light to break the gloom
The rose gardens are in full bloom
Sweet dahlia, my heart
And all the peace you impart
I’m waiting for you patiently
This life for you complacently
The tides from the adjacent sea
Will pull you face-to-face to me
Soak your leaves and drink from me
Tell me that you will never leave
(Water)
It runs from you, it runs from me
It falls from the sky and settles in a puddle at our feet
Longingly, desperately
We span the distance with all our insistence
Finding our ways separately
Till I’m with you, and you’re with me
I’m floating through the cosmos
Collecting dust feeling incomplete
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5. |
The Jester
05:23
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Oh how I wish you were here
And I wish your sounds were in my ear
I guess that’s the way she fucking goes
But you left us too soon
So it’s hard to really know
If any one of us could have changed a damn thing
And this world without your swing, it really fucking stings
Because we hear this same story every single fucking day
And If I knew that train was coming I would have stood in its way
But you were the jester and you always loved your games
But HB lost your music and I think that’s a damn shame
Maybe all you ever really needed was a sign
Cause folks like you and I can’t count on two stars to align
And even though it seems like we were damned through design
I cry that music couldn’t save your life like it saved mine
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6. |
Androcles and the Lion
04:21
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I’ve already looked deep into that hole
And I know what kind of damage it could do to my soul
To entertain those thoughts even just for a second
I’ll be present in this life until eternity beckons
And every single day like the old ash tree
That sat outside the window singing siren songs to me
Lying dormant in the winter and awaiting warmth and light
I know I’m feeling lost, but I will not die
I know I’m feeling lost, but I will not die
I think I’m fucking drowning, Yeah I’m lost out at sea
I see the path to salvation out of my periphery
The strength to overcome was never guaranteed
But you won’t find peace for free and on that we can agree
So I will swim through the debris just to get you close to me
I never will let myself spiral down that path
And disappear so I don’t have to see the aftermath
And I can run real far but I can’t outrun my flaws
No matter how many times I drive through fucking Omaha
And every single day like every stage of me
Looking at the binding coils and yearning to be free
I’ll make peace with the things that I can’t rectify
Cause I know I’m feeling lost, but I will not die
I’m feeling lost
But I will not die
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7. |
Statue by a Lake
04:27
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8. |
Robin
04:50
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Robin, Robin
Creature of the summer and the spring
And with all the songs you sing
You know you’ve taught me lots of things
Robin, Robin
I can hear you struggling through the night
I wish you’d follow the seasons
And I wish you could take flight
Robin, Robin
We know that you’ve sacrificed it all
And you shaped the earth beneath us
So that we could stand tall
So listen now
Take a breath and gather all your feathers
Because for things to get better
you gotta fly through stormy weather
Robin, Robin
We know that we’re dealing with the best
The one who took broken branches
And built us a nest
Robin, Robin
I know that you never lacked faith
You gotta follow this long road as it winds so many ways
It’s a fucking maze
Robin, Robin
Creature of the sun
We’re not calling it done
Because you’re stronger than anyone
So listen now
Take a breath and gather all your features
Because for things to get better
You gotta fly through stormy weather
Robin, Robin
You know that I love you in your heart
And I’m sorry for everyday
We have to spend apart
Robin, Robin
Dark are the woods where you now roam
You’ll need every bit of your strength to fight your way home
Robin, Robin
Hard are the struggles you fight through
But if anyone can handle it
I know it would be you
So listen now
Take a breath and gather all your feathers
Because for things to get better
You gotta fly through stormy weather
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9. |
Fixed Idea
03:39
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You
You’re like a melody that I can’t seem to shake loose
I can’t stop thinkin bout
You
And everything you are and every single thing you do
You
You got me singing like I ain’t got nothing better to do
You
To be with you I’d repeat everything I have been through
I don’t know
How you make me feel so alive
I don’t know
How the lights seemed brighter when you arrived
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10. |
A Year In a Day
04:40
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I’m eating ash again
I’m eating cash again
I’ve crashed at the bottom of my stash
And I need some friends
I guess it just depends
If I can just pretend
The whiplash that hit me in a flash
Will find a way to mend
And I just realized that I can see
The ending of this story waiting there for me
For now I’m feeling low
Low on that totem pole
With unreturned intentions being cast from a broken soul
Keep my gaze on the goal
I’ve never had control
My whole life in a pane of glowing glass
And I can’t be consoled
And I just realized that I can see
The ending of this story waiting there for me
I can’t throw this away
I’m living day by day
Finding balance in between what people do and what people say
My living is delayed
My thoughts have gone astray
I’m digging through well meanings seeking truth
And I feel betrayed
And I just realized that I can see
The ending of this story waiting there for me
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11. |
awerfs
04:30
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If you know who I am
You know I’m fucking terrifying
But if you really know me
You know I’m probably fucking lying
Cause when I get anxious I speak
At speeds that are damn-near breakneck
Praying that all these words
Will supplement my weak-ass paycheck
If you know who I am
You know I emanate confidence
But if you really know me
You know I sorely lack competence
It’s this duality of my being
That stops me from ever seeing
A meaning to this madness when none of it really means shit
Because maybe none of it is real
And maybe I’m already dead
In my head I keep these thoughts close
When I’m lying in my bed
And it’s the bed I made
Tucked in with dying dreams
With lullabies of ostinato non harmonic screams
This old hag is on my chest
But maybe it’s for the best
Cause I take one step closer to death
With every desperate breath
And the pain it never ends
It grows and manifests
Into thoughts and feelings that are never properly addressed
I know I’m dancing like the words on my tongue
And seeming clueless
I know I’m wandering around in endless circles
Being useless
I know the world can come at me in waves
And be quite ruthless
I know I can expend all my efforts and still end up fruitless
If you know who I am
you know I’m as sharp as a knife
But if you really know me
You’d know I need to get a life
Sitting aimless in whatever spot I call home
But the world is ending soon
So who’ll collect my student loans
If you know who I am
You know I move with skillful tactics
But if you really know me
You know i’m severely out of practice
Living on a check that bounced
Ten years ago
Recollecting on my failures
As I stumble down Arapahoe
I know I’m dancing like the words on my tongue
And seeming clueless
I know I’m wandering around in endless circles
Being useless
I know the world can come at me in waves
And be quite ruthless
I know I can expend all my efforts and still end up fruitless
I know I’m dancing like the words on my tongue
And seeming clueless
I know I’m wandering around in endless circles
Being useless
I know the world can come at me in waves
And be quite ruthless
I know I can expend all my efforts and still end up fruitless
If you know who I am you know I’m leading the team
But if you really know me you know I’m living in a day dream
Doing what will suffice until I run home to my vice
And to be precise I’m full of free bad life advice
If you know who I am you know I’m overflowing with passion
But it seems that giving a fuck has really fallen out of fashion
So I’m sitting here, confused, getting lost in the twirl
Laughing my own way to the end of the world
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12. |
No. 44
04:20
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I don’t
Know where I am but I’ve been here before
And I know
When Dr Jekyll comes knocking that I’ll hop to the door
I’ve grown
To find peace in the cross chatter brought on by the fungi
Cause I know
That true peace of mind is really hard to come by
I once
Caught a glimpse of the future when I glared through the window
And it was
That man sketching in your neighborhood that childhood friend you know
I knew
I had to fly far away to flee the pull of that gravity
Cause it’s true
That I try to mean well but I also love depravity
I am
A transient state and a figment of my daydreams
And it’s clear
That I struggle with reality more than it may seem
But I know
If I get out of bed and put my feet in the right place
That I will
Be prepared for the next time that I surely fall from grace
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13. |
Check Out My Basement
01:22
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